Here Comes the Sun

Once we found out Sloane’s condition at 20 weeks and became unsure that we would meet her on Earth, our sweet neighbor who is a minister, encouraged me to read, sing, and talk to Sloane as much as possible. She said I should do my best to hold Sloane in love so all she felt was the love, comfort, and peace of the womb – I cherished that advice so much.

The song I sang to Sloane the most by far was, “You Are My Sunshine”. I normally couldn’t get through it without crying and almost always ended it weeping begging Sloane not to take my sunshine away but I persisted.

The night I had to deliver Sloane I was just so devastated as you can imagine. Time stood still and moved too fast all at the same time but there was a moment I will never forget that I feel certain Sloane sent me.

They rolled me to the Operating Room in my hospital bed but once we got to the doors they asked if I could walk the rest of the way in and to the table. I obliged with shaky legs and unsure steps. As they opened the OR doors there was music playing and my ears were immediately filled with the song “Here Comes the Sun”. I broke at the sound because Sloane was truly my sunshine and I was about to see and say goodbye to the sun for the rest of my earthly life.

In the last few days as I have started to process through the tremendous grief I kept coming back to that song. I finally looked up the lyrics as it is one of those songs I have heard so many times but never really listened to.

Here comes the sun do, do, do
Here comes the sun

And I say it’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here

Here comes the sun do, do, do
Here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here

Here comes the sun do, do, do
Here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear

Here comes the sun do, do, do
Here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

I know after reading through those lyrics that Sloane sent me that song in that Operating Room at that moment to try and give me hope.

Sloane was sunshine in so many ways. Right now I truly can’t feel or even see the sun because the world is dark with grief but I know it is there and I know she is there watching us and waiting for us to see the sun again.

I have been working on ideas of how we will honor Sloane in the future to make sure she is never forgotten and although I don’t know what it will be yet I know it will be something that spreads sunshine to others just like she did to us.

Until then, we miss you so much sweet girl. Send us some sunshine soon.

Published by Brooke Powers

I am a 7th grade teacher with 9 years experience and 3 years experience implementing the Common Core. I want to help teachers new to the profession and new to the Common Core be as successful as possible while growing professionally myself!

One thought on “Here Comes the Sun

  1. Brooke, what a great testimony of hope! I love the song “Here Comes the Sun” too, for so many reasons! Now every time I hear it or sing it I was alway think of sweet Sloane. Praying you and Kevin can stand, sit, walk through the sunshine soon.

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